Apparently, I've got some serious writer's block. I started a blog post tonight about the Tea Party Movement, and I got nearly a page into the essay and decided to just trash the whole thing and give up. Then I went to a friend's blog and was typing out a response to something he had written, and I ended up trashing that too and not commenting at all.
The creativity seems to have dried up for the moment, for some reason. I've actually been scouring the internet and some of my favorite websites for inspiration, but there's just...nothing. I've looked through some of my past work, hoping for inspiration from some tangential topic, but again there's just nothing there. I've been wanting to do another commentary on Christianity and hell, but the creative urge just isn't there to even get me started. I'm reading a fantastic book by Marcus Borg right now on the historical Jesus, and books like this usually inspire a number of blog posts, but this time around there's just nothing.
Did you notice how many times I used the word "just" in the paragraph above? I can't even think of a better way to phrase those sentences. It's just (there it is again) rambling. That's all I've got right now.
It's almost a feeling of hopelessness or uselessness. What can I say that hasn't been said 100 times better by countless others? What difference am I going to make with my little tiny corner of the blogosphere that gets, if I'm lucky, 150 hits a day?
For crying out loud, I just wrote two or three paragraphs about a discussion that I have been involved in recently, which I was going to try to connect to the theme of this post, and I ended up just erasing it all because it was just utter crap, and whatever point I felt like I was going to make just wouldn't come out. It was just rambling garbage. It's kind of like when you're trying to take a crap, and it's RIGHT FREAKING THERE, but it refuses to come out.
See, that's the level I've come to. Making poop analogies.
And now I can't figure out how to close out this stupid post, so I guess I'll just leave it with shit, since that's been what my blog has been worth for the last 2 months.
You know, noone really understands, do they? What it's like to look at the page, pen in hand, and realize ... yeah, I've got nuthin.
ReplyDeleteGlad it doesn't just happen to me.
And hope you get yr ability to muse back.
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ReplyDeleteI think you are being a tad too hard on yourself here. You have a lot going on right now and working for a living will interfere, you know. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm in a blogging slump myself though I can hear you now thinking about how I never have anything profound to post anyway, but still. It will come back around. You'll see.